I Think I Can I Think I Can

One of my earliest obsessions in life (oh and since then there have been MANY) was the story of THE LITTLE ENGINE THAT COULD.  To read one version of this beloved children's tale - please visit this website: http://ah_coo.tripod.com/engine_that_could.htm

I suppose I enjoyed the idea of the little steam engine doing the impossible - doing what the mighty BIG steam engine could not - simply through will power.  

So - Here I am - becoming my own little engine that could.  Ever since I can remember, I have wanted to work in theatre, perform, direct, dance, sing, have a work out video a la Richard Simmons - the possibilities seemed endless.  It was always a DREAM - but now it is time to make that DREAM reality.

Up to this point - I have had some truly magical experiences.  Assistant directing a Broadway Play, Working with the Royal Shakespeare Company, Performing at the Jupiter Theatre when I was a little kid, Many Nutcrackers, heck, even winning the SCNY's 2007 Showcase Figure Skating Competition.  But I never actually made a LIVING at it.  I brushed with success but never actually seized it - made it my own - become one with it.  I was almost AFRAID of it - or too full of self doubt for whatever reason.  Making excuses, whining, saying "if only."  

People talk a lot about potential.  I personally feel a person's potential is only their ability to overcome their "if onlys."  Mugsy Bogges was a tiny little man, yet he had a very successful NBA career.  He didn't whine about how if ONLY he wasn't so short.  Barack Obama didnt whine and say IF ONLY I was born to "American Aristocracy" and was grandfathered into an Ivy League School.  Ben Hur didnt say - if only my best friend hadn't betrayed me and sold me as a slaveon a galley ship and left my wife and daughter to die of leprosy in a prison cell.  The people at NASA didnt say IF ONLY we didnt have gravity to deal with.  They OVERCAME it - and went to the moon and beyond.  

So all of my if onlys - if only I was prettier, smarter, skinnier, had a better voice, was a better dancer, had more connections in the directing world, was a member of the British realm, etc... no longer matter.  No - I am going out and am gonna shine like the star I know I am.  I don't know whether success will come by way of directing or performing, but I know it will come SOMEHOW - and I'll gonna give it 210%!!!  BECAUSE I DESERVE IT!:)

So - ladies and gentlemen - we got a blind date with destiny - and it looks like she's ordered the lobster!

ENGINES - GET SET - GO! 

I THINK I CAN I THINK I CAN I THINK I CAN!!!!:)