Facing fears

I have a fear that I am a failure - and all of these people I have been avoiding are merely evidence of that. Kristen, Trevor, Marcia, Josh...all people who I worked with when I was on track to be the greatest director ever - before getting lost, or side tracked, or failing, or whatever happened.

Well - this Sunday I am facing my fears --- I going to see their shows - and hopefully them (assuming I decide Nigh Music is worth the necessary $137 to spend.)

It scares me, but it's time I face my fears. I don't belong buffing floors at Steps and entertaining 4 year olds in knock off Disney costumes. I BELONG on Broadway. I BELONG in the professional theatre world - whether it's director or performing - it's where I belong. It's where I have always belonged. The only thing keeping me is fear and insecurity - and that needs to end ... now.

And now - I'd like to share Ariel's first lyrics in the Broadway LITTLE MERMAID:

This is where I belong
Beneath the clear wide blue here!
I feel completely new here in the world above!
It’s like my life was wrong
And somehow, now, at last I’m in
My own skin
Up here in the world above!

There’s so much light here
Light and space!
The sun’s so bright here
Upon my face!
It feels so right here
Warm as love...
Life seems to be
Almost calling to me
From this strange new world above!