muscles

I want to know if I get to direct IOLANTHE! GAH! I've never been very good at being patient. I like to know the endings of movies and books BEFORE I watch them - I read spoilers - have my friends tell me - read the last line of the book before the first. Many many many people think this is "lame," but it makes the journey so much more enjoyable for me. I can prepare myself for disaster or enjoy the struggle knowing that it ends in SUCCESS! None of this...suspense...ugh.

Speaking of suspense - Pilates suddenly got exponentially harder. There are way too many muscles, ligaments, bones, boney landmarks, and fossa. I can't remember a tenth of them and keep falling asleep studying. Finally, tonight, I found an iphone app that will quiz me. I did OK, but it's multiple choice, I don't know how I would do with NO options in front of me. And I don't know how much I NEED to know. I never have heard ANY of my teachers use more than seven of these words. The gemellus - who needs to know the gemellus. If I don't someone I was sore in my pectineus or vastus medialis they would think I was crazy. However, "man, my quads are tight" or my hip is sore makes sense. Oh! It feels so good to roll out my sartorius. Doesn't "rolling out my inner thigh" make more sense. I don't think any pilate or ballet students would say - oh right! I'll get right on turning out my gemellus or o.k. I"ll lift my semitendinosus more in an arabesque. I'm just frustrated and scared and nervous. I don't want to fail my certification!

24 hour theatre was postponed by the VLOG board - grrrrr....I wanted to write to BOYDY. And anytime something is "postpone" I get nervous that actually means --- cancelled. They did set a date for the rescheduling in September and had a good reason - so that is hopeful.

The new casting networks is AMAZING and I was given some great tips by some people today about workshops and classes to go to in order to get a film and t.v. agent. All my life I've only wanted to do live theatre - but Gossip Girl - man Gossip Girl has inspired me to try other mediums so I'm very excited.

I had a talk with Evan over the weekend - that essentially was about being open to all the possibilities surrounding you. I think that is my goal for the rest of this year. Be open - and remember YES is the first rule of improv. (Of course - if a man in a pirate outfit asks you out on a date - the answer is NO --- ) but so far saying yes has made the world a more HOPEFUL place. And HOPEFULLY positive results will come. No doubt they will!:)