I ALSO got only TWO HOURS of sleep. Why do you ask? Because at 2:30 in the morning, a car drove up and parked itself outside playing SUPER loud reggaeton and woke me up from my pleasant slumber. So I went down to tell them to turn it off when the lady (a very tiny) who owned the car started getting in my face and pushing me and daring me to find a police man, at which point I ran away, since I couldn't get back into my apt and called 911. So I'm standing on the corner with all of the black guys whistling at me in my tiny pajama shorts and it took the police at least 5 minutes to come - probably five of the more horrified moments of my life, the police came, escorted me back to my apt, but made me sit in the car for 30 minutes while they tried to calm down the crazy lady and get her to leave. I was finally able to get back INTO my apt, super wound up and scared - too much so to really sleep for a while, so an hour later when I was about to doze off - the lady comes BACK and starts blasting the music AGAIN, at which point two neighbors from upstairs convinced her to turn it off (took about 15 minutes) and I called 311 for backup.) I tried to talk to the super about it, but he is on vacation until next week! Turns out crazy lady has a drinking problem and she lives on the 5th floor of my building. The "unofficial" surveyors of my apt. on the 4th floor said they would have a talk with her to make sure it doesn't happen, but I am scared and frustrated. I mean - the apt was deemed an environmental hazard by the police, the super says the noise and mess bothers HIM, and now it's just getting violent! It's not safe! It's not pleasant. And no one seems to care enough to do anything. I don't understand how a group of people can be so disrespectful! This morning I woke up way earlier than usual and walking the streets was disgusting and sad. Trash, food, cigarettes, even people's CLOTHS, were abandoned and a group of sanitation workers were cleaning it up. It's our community. Have a LITTLE respect! What really confuses me is - it has NEVER been a problem before THIS YEAR! I don't know what changed but something HAS to!
I'm also a teensy bit frustrated because Cara is staying with me this week from Vegas. Cara is great. Cara is wonderful! But I didn't realize that meant Kat would be staying over night as well and every night we would just watch bad 80s or reruns of Gossip Girl (REALLY? Cara is here? Do we have to watch it from the beginning for a third time?) And I didn't realize I was supposed to cancel my whole week for this. I have only taken TWO dance classes!!!!!!!!! (granted I also did an audition and a voice lesson and an acting lesson and work but....I usually take at least 1 class a day if not 2 or 3!!!!!) I've not been able to work on BLACK PETER at all! Jean-Paul VACATED the premises for the week because he couldnt take it. (but he was super nice and chill about it.) And today was fun - we took a horse and carriage ride through central park and sat by the lake and had a picnic - but in general - GAH! I WANT TO GET A F-ing JOB I have to get better at EVERYTHING and not be subject to the negative influences of others! And truthfully - it is zapping the fun out of my birthday party since - well - I've been eating nutella and staying up late EVERY freaking night this week - Saturday won't be special. LOL! It may even be annoying! I just want to be alone and eat healthy!
But it is nice to have Cara here. She is amazingly motivational. She is the perfect example of a girl who REFUSES to give up. People are always telling hr she suck and isn't good enough etc... but she goes to EVERY FREAKING AUDITION! Even ones for short fat black men who belt and do hiphop! (she is a 5'9 slender pasty white showgirl/ballerina.) And it pays off! She gets rejected a lot - but she also gets hired! And that is so inspiring to see! And I want it to be MEEEEE! I also admire how she is ALWAYS working and fighting towards her goals and making things happen. She is a very active force which I admire! I need to surround myself with Do-ers! More movers and shakers! Like her!
At any rate - it's been a frustrating and stressful week. At least I'm alive and wasn't hurt by that crazy lad!y Though I"m BEYOND pissed that she made me miss ALL of my sleep!
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