However, this year, I feel there are many more mile markers far beyond my weight. And I'm happy with them.
This year, I feel I'm back on track. I have fallen back in love with theatre - after a strange quixotic journey that has taken me through the frozen arctic tundra of figure skating, the bizarre jungle of law school LSATs, the crazy misguided dessert of Batman, and the oasis of disillusionment about my own capabilities.
This year, Alena and I have a showcase in the works - which will give us an opportunity to showcase our talents in front of agents and casting directors. We actually have put money down for the theatre - so it will really happen! Just waiting on the date confirmation!
Additionally, I was waiting for a long time for my old composer for Giraffes Cant Dance to get on the ball. Her schedule on the road, however, proved too full to dedicate time to the project. Alena, however, just spent two years in Korea where she wrote and performed children's shows for an English Language Amusement Park. (Yes - Korea is cool like that - they have English Language Amusement Parks!) Through this, she met many composers who now reside in NYC who specialize in chidlren's musicals. So - we are all now collaborating, in the same CITY, so hopefully THAT will happen as well! It would be so excited to create a show from the bottom up!
Thanks to Casey, Amanda, and Yoda, I actually understand how to work CORRECTLY in dance class - not just twirl about absent mindedly like some crazy fairy wannabe. I can now control my body and use my muscles and skeleton to the best of my ability - and while there is a lot of work to do - I'm at least making huge strides. Getting my butt to theatre dance, tap class, jazz, and contemporary, in addition to just ballet - and understanding my weaknesses and how to make them strengths - and how to control my long arms so they look graceful and elegant - not crazy, insane, and spastic.
I still don't know exactly how this part happened, but I can now sing. And apparently sing really well - and I'm earning how to control my singing as well - and "release" my voice - which is so much fun! It's hard - but at the same time - I feel so empowered! Especially when I hit my super high notes. I know there are probably hundreds of thousands of people who can hit those notes, but they still make me feel special. I love my voice lessons and I love practicing - even if it tortures my neighbors. (No matter how good or bad I actually sound - I know they do not care to hear Phantom of the Opera or Tosca - they'd much prefer Beyonce.)
I also have goals! Even since assisting Rovert, I've been a little lost along the lines of passionate goals. My two PERFORMING goals are - Mermaid -OBVIOUSLY - but also - Phantom of the Opera. Which oddly - doesnt actually seem outside of the realm of possibility in terms of my capability - though as with everything - you need a lot of luck. The right place, the right time, the right day, all the stars to be aligned properly, and the right butterfly to flap its wings across the shore in Africa. However, I am indeed doing everything in MY power to be ready. I've been learning the dances for Mermaid, and working on the BELTING with Mary, ordered my Heelys - etc... For Phantom - Mary have me this RIDICULOUSLY difficult opera aria from the Ballad of Baby Doe. It does up to a high D - and you have to sustain the note and make it sound pretty. Apparently, the original Christine alternate sang it at her audition - so that is what Ill be singing as well. It's so daunting, but exciting. I always thought that Christine was a bit of a pipe dream, but Mary seems to be convinced otherwise - even going so far as to suggest the casting directors see me for the role. (She used to be IN the show - so she knows them...) So - work on those high Ds I shall.
Giraffes Cant Dance and the Showcase would be great opportunities to use my creative director side. I feel the inner director stirring again -she just needs an opportunity to come out and say hello. Every book I read I want to adapt into a play. I saw Waiting for Godot with Amanda and completely dissected a la RSC days - and those Shakespeare Quotes have been rather abundant. It makes me happy!:)
There is a Lot of work still to be done. It is hard to not just say SCREW IT - I'd rather have a picnic or go see a movie or eat a cake.
I've had some heinous embarassing auditions, some confusing auditions, some frustrating auditions, I'm still learning how to pull everything together. I think progress is being made - and that makes me happy.
if not INCREDIBLY tired - which is why there hasnt been much writing here - but I imagine all the entries would more or less have the same content - with some odd ends here and there - like the obligatory mention of Michael Jacksons death, or mentions of the triple date dinner Casey and Davin, Amanda and Shane and me and Francesco where he bought me ice cream - we joke it was a date - but alas - neither Davin or Francesco play for the female team.
But mostly work work work - train train train - and hope, wish, pray, find happy thoughts, faith and trust, and get out the pixie dust!:)
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