hold your head even higher!:)

This past week was very productive in terms of trying new teachers, adapting to styles, and focusing on rhythm and specificity of movement!  Huzzah!

This coming week is gonna be a crazy test of auditioning.  There is an audition every day except wednesday.  It makes me tired just thinking about it!  But onward and upward men - the heights of great men...

Fortunately- none of these are projects I feel passionately about or am emotionally wrapped up in - so they are relatively (and I me relatively) low key - auditions are never actually low key - just relatively compared to other ones.  

I finished reading WATER FOR ELEPHANTS.  IT IS AMAZING!  READ IT!

Basically my head has been bursting will determination and creative ideas.  I spent so much of the past few months being ridiculously depressed.  Very little held any actual joy or spark for me.  I knew that was not a good thing - so I just kept going - but somewhat robotically.  Yes - most of this had to do with a certain BLAH we shall not mention - but it now feels like springtime in my brain!  Like the depression has thawed out and flowers are blooming and birds are singing - the sun is shining.  Everything holds something exciting I want to leap out and explore - and an excited anxiousness - 

Call up Alena - discuss the showcase and other exciting ideas of creativity (we are just waiting for the theatre to figure out what date they want to give us.)

Get on Giraffes Cant Dance composers rump and figure out why I havent recieved any music yet!  I'm wondering if I should just post an ad on craigslist or playbill.com for a composer - it would be nice to perform it at next years fringe or something...

What else can I do for Mermaid?  Let's get out there and do it!

Call up old friends and discuss books and news stories and go on hikes or play board games or movie hop or go out - out of the apt!!!!  and MEET new people!  AMAZING.

Eat...not just stare catatonically at a plate wishing it would bring me some sort of sensation other than numbness...

But as Ferrip says - healthy mind will lead to a healthy body - so now I can still eat intelligently and well - just - I'll be happy when doing so!

Weird...

Its been a crazy learning adventure - and I feel I've come out the better for it (touch wood.)  I"m glad the sadness is gone (touch wood.)  I'm excited to see what the next few months hold in store!  Hopefully Heelys and a sparkly tail!  But if not - that's ok...because I've learned a lot Mermaid "training."  It gave me a goal - and I like goals!

but now I'm rambling - and I need to go to sleep.  So - good night all!:)