Today was a Sleeping Beauty Party - I didn't actually get to dress up, I worked as Sleeping Beauty's assistant. The girl I was working with was really sweet - as was the family hosting the birthday party. They also had the world's most GORGEOUS apartment! I think it was bigger than our house in Florida. There was a walk in closet almost the size of my room! It even had an "island" of drawers in the middle - like a store would have! It was crazy! And they fed us delicious pizza and cake - hrmmmm - princesses eating pizza...
Anyhow, I'm super excited about this job and I hope it all works out and I can get lots of work being a Party Princess! It pays well and is fun!:) Sure beats buffing floors at Steps! LOL!
Wish I could say I had as much fun in tap - I just find tap so damn boring - but alas - doing the back flips in the audition yesterday left me sore sore sore - so tap it was - not to mention - tap is SUPER good for me!
No word from South Carolina - I know they probably won't call ANYONE until Tuesday at the earliest -but you know me and my obsessive mind - I can't help but go over everything I wish I had done better - "performed" more "enunciated" more - relaxed more - waltzed better - etc...Well - I suppose it's all a learning experience.
No auditions this week which is weird - then - next week - ENGLAND and FRANCE! Which is also weird ---
I'm more than a little nervous about going back to the RSC - I have VERY mixed emotions - on one hand - I love it more than words can ever express - on the other hand - I am extremely hurt that despite all the love passion and dedication I put towards it - in the end - I ultimately can't REALLLLLLY be a part of it - I also feel ashamed because - I feel I had such high expectations - at least IIIII had high expectations of myself - and after WIW - it all kinda fizzles into one depressed gunky gloop - and I'm not really sure I want the RSC rubbing that in my face.
All that being said - how different this fall is from last fall. (I KNOW I've said that before.) But it does truly amaze me. Even if South Carolina doesn't work out - I'm still in HMS Pinafore, I still did Austin's show - I'm a working princess! LOL! And when I'm SEEN at auditions - I'm proud of the work I put forth. I have finally found some mentors - there is the lovely Mary my voice teacher, the lovely Nancy (female Yoda) who has truly taken me under her wing in such a fabulous way - where as Yoda at one point accepted me into his circle - perhaps more as a way of getting back at Batman than anything else - Nancy says - hell - we are gonna get you working on the Broadway - and she pushes me, prods me, yells at me, and encourages me the same way she does her NYCB and ABT students. Constantly - STAND UP TALL, POINTE THOSE FEET, MAINTAIN YOUR TURN OUT, PULL YOUR ARMS IN, PIQUE NOT RELEVE, WORK ON YOUR FIFTH POSITION, ALL YOUR TOES ON THE FLOOR, BE TALLER THAN TORI, JUMP REALLY JUMP, HIGHER! GET YOUR LEG HIGHER! it is the harping on she reserves for professionals - and I can feel myself improving leaps and bounds because of it! And of course - Austin - who has given me so much in terms of self respect, confidence, experience, skills, and a sense of calm - tact - diplomacy - patience - and how to turn every negative experience into something positive and enriching. I am so thankful for these three people.
I should also say Reinking - I can want to strangle her at time - but she is a valuable resource who has gone out of her way helping me find music, work on harmonies, and how to present myself in an audition room. Kat who is always there to listen and be supportive and extremely helpful in EVERY possible way. Alena - who is a constant creative drive and loving giving spirit who motivates me to be the best I can be every day! And of course - Nathan - who is simply Nathan and I love him for it.
So hopefully - and i'm knocking on 8000 things made of woods - things are on an upswing - projects will start coming to fruition - and goals will be finally be reached!
I am thankful for a sound mind and fully functioning body - what wonderful things those are! "what a piece of work is man, how noble in reason..."
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