My song is rhythmically hard - and we all know how much I just LOOOOVE rhythm - and truly at excel at it!
I am excited to wear my pretty dress and sing to --- "Fabrizio" - (HRMMMMM - WHOOOOO could I be using as Fabrizio --- I have nooooo idea...not.................the understudy for Prince Eric in Mermaid - noooo - never!)
There is a girl named Kim in the workshop - who is completely awesome on every single level! Her voice is STUNNING - and to be honest - intimidating. I feel like an uncoordinated three year old next her. She is such a marvelous person though, and we've become good friends in a very short period of time which is nice. We know a lot of the same people - and are reaching towards similiar goals and have similiar inhibitions etc...
I also read way too much into everything - and am convinced that the fact I am third on the program means that Mary hates me --- I think she is just trying to keep Kim and I as far apart on the program as possible - because we are so similiar - and Kim is way better and her songs are a better closer - but you know - I have an overactive mind....blah mind - just be happy --- there is so much to rejoice for - just - be happy- and sing to Fabrizio!
Also - I think the conductor of Pinafore is hitting on me - which is super disturbing - though his is a bazillionaire - so I'm trying to figure out how to make him give me LOTS of money for directing projects or voice lesson or - life - or send me off on crazy expeditions to Expeditions to Europe - he insisted on driving me home tonight - even though he lives on 10th ave. and I live 180 blocks away. DUDE - what is with guys in Pinafore going out of their way to see me home --- riding the train with me only to take it back downtown to where they live on 34th - driving me - this is soooooo bizarre!
PS - the conductor of Pinafore is an old british man ---- I do believe it is odd that I am more comfortable with old british men than anyone else ----- what a strange strange strange thing...useful at times - but strange...
Alright - well - I should go to bed - big day tomorrow - vocal concert - and Nancy - Nancy enjoys beating me up! And it's FABULOUS! I love Nancy! I love Nancy because - as I've said before - she treats me the same as she treats her ABT and NYCB dancers - she holds me to the same level - gives me the same amount of feedback, reality checks, and encouragements. It may not seem special to someone not in the ballet world - but IN the ballet world - it is very very very special - and I am so incredibly thankful.
The package is becoming more and more complete - more and more refined - not a finished product - but getting closer every day ---
My goals for this months (rest of october and November) =
Eat well! (I fell off the bandwagon in Europe and have been having trouble getting back on...)
Continue to explore "relaxing" into my voice and dance/performing TO somebody (It's always Sierra or "Fabrizio" - they seem to work best depending on the subject matter.)
Get my room in order/find furniture that isn't broken
Believe in myself 110%
Enjoy life and encourage my friends to be the best that they can be as well!
Get my projects off the ground - because I can! I remember when I was first trying to work at the RSC - and created the internship - someone - maybe Ken Fischer - said - that we didn't unlock a door - we took a crayon and drew a door where there wasn't one and opened it. I CAN create doors - and WILL - I'm excited to see all that I will do and accomplish!
But for now - I'll just focus on my pretty dress and my two songs for the Cabaret!:)
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