Took one of those AWFUL acting classes where everyone jsut cries for six hours - and well - i went in happy - I didnt want to cry. I had to think of a relationship I tried to save - obviously I used Batman - but I'm so over it - it evoked almost no emotion. The only emotion was egad was I stupid - this is really funny in retrospect. I was chastized though for not digging deep enough to the pain. Personally - I think NOT feeling the pain is a great personal accomplishment. but six hours - EEEESH - of being in a room where people are screaming and crying and bawling and moaning I LOVE YOU and FORGIVE ME and COME BACK - puts you in an unDisney like state. Even Sierra videos arent doing it for me.
THen I came home to find my new roomie had USED MY COMPUTER WITHOUT ASKING - and - had logged me out of all my applications like facebook and logged herself in WITHOUT ASKING...which is SUPER bizarre since she has a computer of her own! Another smaller macbook. WTF. Then when I asked her about it - SHE LIED!!!!! Something like this:
I asked her - did you use my computer? And she said no. And I asked - then why is facebook logged in as you? She said "Oh well I used it briefly a few days ago" me: "but - why is it logging now - and the last instant message says it was sent 2 minutes ago?" Her: That's weird. I don't know why. Me: and why when I go to refresh is it still logged in as you. i used it at 6 p.m. so if you used it a few days ago it should still be logged in as me." Her" That's weird. Me: (going to the 8 different facebook pages I have open) - look - when I hit refresh it goes to you homepage - it wasn't doing that at 6 p.m. Her: I don't know. Me: look - message to so and so - sent at 1:03 am --- 1:01 a.m 12:55 a.m. Her "Alright I did use it tonight. Me: Why did you LIE to me about it when I asked? Her: I don't know - I only used it for a second - Me: You used it for twenty minutes!!!!!!! Her: I don't know --- I didnt realize I used it for twenty minutes. Me: but why did you lie? Her: I didnt realize I used you so recently - Me: alright - but why did you lie that's kinda sketchy her: I'm sorry I didnt know Me: skeptical confused look Her: how was your day? Me: Ok - I took an awful acting class and had ballet --- came home and used facebook - by the way - you need to do your dishes - there are dishes still in there that were there when I came back from England. her: Oh - I just leave them in there to soak. Me: Yes - but you see - when you leave them in there we get bugs - Her: oh - but they need to soak Me: alright but some have been in there for a week, if you just rinse them off right away they dont need to soak, and nothing needs to soak for a week. her: oh ok - I'm sorry. Me: My friend is texting me about the Twillight movie - (then to avoid crying or punching exited into my room.)
And I mean - I think the problem isnt the LENGTH of time or WHEN she did it - but that she DID - AT ALL!
WORST OF ALL SHE LIED! I have not felt so betrayed since ------- BATMAN. and - whilst it is a SMALL thing to lie about - I have had serious trust issues since batman - so ANYTHING is a problem - but especially someone I'm living with to lie to blatantly to my face - how do I know what ELSE she is lying about? Will lie about? I can't truth her with my things - or anything. I want to kick her out right now. that is truly unexcusable in my book. I've dealt with Chloe and batman and that is enough lying for me. DO NOT LIE TO ME!!!!!!! My white knight - Austin - said he learned thebest way to deal with people in ALL situations is to be straight forward - he is SOOOO correct! I still remember the moment when he first started coaching me on seagulls - when he said he would meet me on Sunday at 5 - and he was THERE - and I was shocked because I was so used to Batman saying something then not following through. It was the first time I realized how I had come to not believe what people said - and that I should because there are good people like Austin around. Dammit - I should have just let sean stay here for no money instead of dealing with this shit. yes - I cursed. I'm ANGRY.
But nancy was LOVELY in ballet - and I get to be Ariel tomorrow so all is good if I can get to sleep.
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