There is the POSSIBILITY that I will achieve one of my most passionate dreams --- to live in England - to go to RADA - which would put me OH SO MUCH CLOSER to working - actually WORKING with the RSC. PLUS! I'd be in my BELOVED ENGLAND! THIS OTHER EDEN! THis sceptered isle. The home of the Troughtons, JLF, Andrew, Ellie, Francis, T. Mannion, G. Hick, Body, Rovert, Andrew Lloyd Webber - LOVE NEVER DIES - lol - GUMMIE PIGS! THe program only accepts three - I made it to the final 50 based on on essays and resumes - not I actually have to DIRECT for them - and I am more than a little rusty.
That being said - I actually - apparently made it INTO the CAP21 practicum - but they can UNlet me in - if they don't like the way I belt by May 27th. I took a lesson with their recommended teacher - and lo and behold - she had me belting. I'm not Idina Menzel - I doubt I'm going to be hired for GLEE - but I was belting. The RADA audition would be during the first two weeks of the CAP21 showcase/practicum. The practicum is NOT cheap - and it feels stupid to miss the first two weeks - and if I got INTO RADA - the practicum would be essentially pointless. But if I don't get into RADA - then the practicum is a GIANORMOUS stepping stone that would allow me to be seen by, work with, and get feedback from casting directors, agents, etc... and theoretically book jobs. AHHHHHHH! WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's frustrating because I have people telling me all the time how gorgeous my singing voice is, and what fabulous stage presence I have, and I even had a very picky dance teacher today tell me he was frustrated FOR me because my technique is fabulous and I have EVERYTHING - and he going to get to the bottom of it! Why I'm not cast. (He's also heard me sing...) There is so much to explore there - and I've worked so hard and made so much progress (in a field where the speed of molasses is so much progress - lol) - and I love it - I always have - I always will - but - if given the choice - choose the practicum OR RADA - choose RADA over basically anything - I'd choose RADA. I wish I knew if I was IN - it seem silly to forgo other opportunities on a 3/50 chance...at the same time - I feel I'm as competitive as anybody in that field. (touch wood.)
Twisted every way --- what answer do I give? (That is from Love Never Dies.)
The weirdest part is - I havent even really been accepted into ANYTHING yet. RADA has not accepted - and CAP21 accepted me but reserves the right to kick me out... So I might get both - I might one - I might get neither - it's overwhelming...befuddling...exciting...horrifying...scintillating...and a whole bunch of other oxymoronic adjectives.
Oh yes - and we haven't even gotten into FIDDLER ON THE ROOF fun!:)
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