He's just my Bill.

I woke up this morning desperately missing my friend Bill. This is strange because Bill, can actually be very annoying and immature most of the time. But today - I just woke up craving his company. I figured out why. He is one BOUNDLESS mass of energy who just wants to talk a million miles per minute 24/7 about how awesome opera and Gilbert and Sullivan opera. He will talk about his favorite performers, his favorite songs, his favorite shows, his favorite renditions of each aria/character/show, obscure facts about the composer, his concepts for when HE directs the shows, his glee at being cast in cameo roles at Amore even though he can't sing, his joy in acting as a videographer for amore, his plans to make at home movies, his plans to composer, how he can play 8 instruments (kind of) and plans to learn more, about how to properly pronounce the words of operas/operettas in each language, how to read music, how to count rhythm, how to costume shows, you name it he will talk about it. His energy can often be repelling because it is so overwhelming, but today that is what I want. I truly appreciate it today! It SO much nicer than "ugh, do we have to be here? i have no energy? I don't know how I'll make it through this number or that number. ugh this show is so boring. ugh so many costume changes. Ugh the van suck. Ugh I just want to go to sleep. Ugh can we go home yet?" I want BILL and his billion suns worth of enthusiasm. It is infectious. When you are with him - you want to discuss brilliant things as well! And you want to be enthusiastic about what you are doing. He even makes scrambled eggs from a dive diner at 1 a.m. sound like a gourmet meal. Wherever he is - he will bring happiness and excitement. I miss Bill. And I will try to channel Bill and hope I can bring his infectious enthusiasm to my show - and hopefully have people talking about how wonderful things are! (First I'll have to get them to keep the freaking LIGHTS on in the dressing room - they like to have it "dark." Weird.) I miss Bill...

I just need to become the STAR so I can have my OWN dressing room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!