scared.

There are lots of things scaring me right now. I guess they are scary - and exciting - and sad - and not sad at the same time.

Petrified I won't be able to make it work. Petrified I won't be able to make enough money doing anything. Petrified that my life of believing that I am meant for something is just a fake belief. Scared that I'll be just another sad story --- I reallllly don't want to be a sad story. I want to be a happy story of success and sparkles! Scared I'll never find romantic love. (Wasn't that supposed to have happened now?) Wasn't everything to have happened by now.

My friend I visited with tonight told me to set deadlines and make it all happen. It NEEDS to all happen in 2012. This needs to be the year I step up to the plate and make it work. And I'm horrified! And behind that horror - is a lot of excitement - ready to step into my spotlight and shine!:)