CALL BACK!!!!!!!!

I WAS CALLED BACK FOR CAROUSEL!  I WAS CALLED BACK FOR THE ROLE OF LOUISE!  AND IT MAKES ME SOOOOO HAPPPPPPPPPY!  She has my favorite line in the entire play:  "Is it possible for someone to hit you hard like that, real loud and hard, and have it not hurt at all."

It seems so ridiculous because I mean - it should hurt if someone hits you.  It SHOULD hurt - and to excuse it is often viewed as condoning domestic abuse etc...  But I don't think that is what the show is about at all!  I think the show is saying - sometimes you love someone so much, that you don't even notice/realize they are treating you like shit.  Or - you realize it - but you don't care because you love everything else so much.  Its not SMART - but it happens - people love shitty shitty shitty douchebags - and there is really nothing they can do about it!  There is a song in Carousel called "whats the use of wonderin'" and it goes "what the use of wonderin' if he's good or if he's bad or if you like the way he wears his hat oh whats the use of wonderin' if the ending will be sad, he's your feller and you love him, that's all there is to that."  And - well - I can relate to that!    I want people to be able to understand that!    I want to tell that story!  Its such a beautiful story of love, and heart break, and people trying to be good, but going about it in all different ways - some better than others.  But that is life.  People TRY to be good - but some go about it by stealing money off of fishing boats, beating their wives, and dying on their own knives - and others find more ---- compassionate successful and effective ways of going about living.   Seeing both attempts at life side by side highlights how ineffective Billy's way is at achieving his final, and how Nettie, Carrie, Louise, and Julie - while from living a life of opulence, do find happiness in love kindness and compassion.    That is very important.

Not to mention the musical has everything!  You laugh - you cry - you think - June busts out all over - and you'll never walk alone!  IT is just such a BEAUTIFUL story - and I want so badly to be a part of it.

Reigning myself in - its just a CALL back - and I was CUT from the DANCE call  (How on earth I was called back for a non-singing BALLET role from a singers call is beyond me....)  So - just dreaming - but send all your happy thoughts my way!

Other than that - it was a pretty good day today!  we werent seen at CATS - but I took three classes and learned the combination to FAUST for the Met audition on Wednesday!:)