The Mopey Entry

Sometimes I get scared I'm actually depressed - for some reason today I have mopey and miserable since waking up.  Part of it might be I have really bad nightmares in the doggie house that just sit with me all day like loathesomely pungent putrid yellow cloud of doom.    Last night I dreamt about being shot, and sexually abused, and my dead dog coming back as a zombie.  So I woke up pretty miserable - and wasn't able to shake it.  I went to tap - and was all pissy and starting crying when the teacher gave me this teeny tiny correction - (not like bawling crying - but the tears that well up in your eyes because you are frustrated but refuse to let drop kind of crying.)  Then I went home and moped about, until Amanda started IMing me - which put me in a slightly better mood - but then I went to Steps for Jana's class - and Batman and family were there - so then - booooooom gloom and sadness again.  And it hasn't gone away - despite the fact I ate abnormal amounts of chocolate and took a bath with a lovely lavendar scented bath ball that I bought from LUSH whilst reading The Tales of Beedle the bard - and finally got a subletter for my apt.  Joy.  GAH - I SOOOOO wish Eternal Sunshine of the Spotles Mind were real!  Maybe on Wednesday I'll go see Mermaid - that seems to be the antidote for all things sad.  Or maybe I'll go see Exit the King since Geoffrey Rush is the epitome of all things amazing - and it has a LITTLE more depth ------ and less tap dancing!  always a plus in my book!  I may even stage door and quote some Casanova Frankenstein for him.  Haha!  Or Quills!  or Javert!  or Barbosa!  I really am a Geoffrey Rush fanatic! He is amazing!:)

I e-mailed a bunch more theatres today about the showcase, and made a list of possible songs and numbers.  Charlie and I divided up tasks and figured out which choreographers we were each going to approach about helping, and which music directors.  I believe we've also decided we are going to charge everyone to be IN it - but let them all have equal stock in the ticket intake - so - they will all have to pay $100 to be in it - but it we make $3000 in ticket sales they will get it all back, if we make $30 in ticket sales, they will only get $1 back.  Lots of incentive for them to run out and get people to buy tickets!

I also made a dentist appointment - because Dental Hygiene is a good thing!

I suppose tomorrow I should write to the director of the Adams Family and the four different locations the famous actress told me to send it.  Yay for being proactive since there are NO auditions this week for me to attend.

I also discovered that hot dermatologist is super lame - and his favorite activity is "watching tv" and what he wants to do in NY is meet the cast of LOST and supermodels.  And he looks super skeevy and greasey in his friendster photos - so - alas - it was not meant to be.  I am hoping for someone whose activities range a little beyond "watching tv" and whose ambitions are a little more than meeting the cast of LOST.  Greg tells me its illegal for a doctor to date a patient anyways - so just as well I am dumping him from our imaginary relationship in my head.