Hold on!

Today I took Jana in the a.m. instead of ballet (she was subbing) - and it was such a happy coincidence - a very therapeudic and refreshing class.

Then - I had lunch with Gina before she moves back to Florida - we went to Mario Batali's pizza shop called OTTO - ridiculously amazing pizza! It was good - we analyzed Shakespeare - and I learned why she had the secret wedding and why on Jenny was invited - and my mind was put completely to rest - and my belly made completely full.

Then I had a voice - which was really good ACTING wise - I think...and singingwise --- I had been listening to the song HOLD ON from SECRET GARDEN and I was like - aha! I want to to sing this song and it's all belty - so perhaps I'll bring it to Mary - and I did - and she was like - ooooh wow - I like where this is living - it sounds really good - it isn't a big chest belt - but it is a "soprano belt" (whatever that means...) and then when singing through it I burst into tears - I suppose because I was "connecting" - "And it doesn't even matter if the danger and the doom come from up above or down below or just come flying at you from across the room - when you see a man who's raging and he's jealous 'cause he fears that you've walked through walls he's hid behind for years what you do then is you tell yourself this old thing you heard me say - it's this day not you that's bound to go away." I was a heaving mess for about two minutes - and Mary started crying - and supposedly that is good - but it's awfully hard to sing when sobbing.

Then I went to Jean-Paul's - where we ate dumplings and massive amounts of ice cream - and watched ice skating on youtube - and read funny articles on the Onion on-line.

So overall - lots of laughing and break throughs - which are all good - haha - now I just hope I don't break through the seem of my pants tomorrow when trying to be a soprano singing ballerina at TWO auditions! Chava for FIDDLER and Meg for some bizarre all percussion PHANTOM - where I have to look closer to 15 then 25 or - er --- 28... (apparently the ballet dancers - of which Meg is one - range from 10-18 - and Meg is listed as between 18-25 - Little Mermaid dress it is then!)

I also found out I didn't get a Straw Hat audition - Straw Hat is a non-equity audition grouping - where you perform for 10-20 regional theatres who wouldn't ordinarily see you. How sad is it that I can't even PAY to get an audition. BLARGHLEBOTS! (they took my $40 and didn't even give me an audition!) So here I go - off to non-paying theatre - YEEHAW! At least I have an audition buddy now - Kim -too bad my audition buddy shows me up! haha! But she makes everything was more fun - and we arent really going in for the same parts - so it's all good.