So - today - I woke up early - and was not seen at Sacramento! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! UGH! However - I did get to eat delicious dumplings at Rickshaw's dumpling store - I think dumplings are my new food obsession - that and of course - waffles.
I also discovered that SAM WILL BE HERE IN JULY AND AUGUST WITH THE RSC! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I think I scared my roomie with happiness!
I also think I'm tired -and frustrated - and worn out. I have an allegory for it - it happened today - I went to ballet - and I hadnt had time to buy a new water bottle- so I had my old one - and the cap didnt' screw on tight enough - so I dripped - the TEENIEST amount onto a girls jacket - who then yelled at me for dripping and said "can we please not drip your water all over the place. I need to wear that later." ANyhow - my allegory is - that I feel like that leaky water bottle. I feel like I'm leaking all over the place. Everyone wants my time - rehearsals, work, a show I havent even accepted yet because they wont give me the schedule OR PERFORMANCE dates, class, friends, weird random guys who I havent seen in four years - and the last time I saw them - they had told me they were in love with me- then when I met up with them said - JUST KIDDING I'm engaged - and acted like nothing ever happened - then their wife leaves them and now they call me and want me to climb onto rooftops with them. WHAT THE F*CK people! Why on EARTH can't I EVER meet a guy who will - just treat me like a human? And - they won't leave me alone - texting - facebooking - calling - showing up places -harassing my friends. GAH! And then there are my friends - bless their hearts - I can't find any time to hang out with them. And then there are people I dont care to hang out with - who show up at the places I am - and it makes me mad - because all of sudden I find myself entertaining them instead of devoting time to the blessful people who make life amazing! And then there are audition - so time consuming - so pointless - not because I dont do well - but because I'm not seen. Some guy came up to me in line today and asked me if I would vote for him to be president of Equity. I said "will you make me a member of equity." He said - oh - no I can't do that - jsut keep working. I said - I would lOVE to work - but I"m never seen. And he said "oh it's tough." I wanted to punch him.
That being said - I've met some really amazing people. Four really lovely dancers who I've met through auditions and through Fabrizio. And - yesterday in Fabrizio's class - Fabrizio told a girl how we met - it was really interesting hearing his side of the story. It makes me seem - way less - creepy? haha. It made me sound really amazing and professional - at which point the girl started asking me for advice on everything from dancing to auditioning to Wicked - and I was like whoah whoah whoah --- I don't know the answers to anything - but I'm honored you would ask me!
I should also mention - NYU - NYU - has been surprisingly cool to me - considering I didn't go there. NYU's CAP21 (the muscial theatre program) has given me several performing opportunities - and NOW I discover I can take class there - thanks to Mr. Fabrizio - haha - so I'm getting a quasi NYU education for $10 a class without ever having been accepted! Hysterical and amazing.
So I could complain a lot - but there is also a lot of wonderful. I miss Kat---but she is off having a great time in Arizona doing CATS - and I think it will be fabulous for her! In a way - NYC stiffles her - to it will be good for her to be with her peers and in a place with open airs and nature - and PERFORMING.
I'm glad Jean-Paul and I have re-instated our musical crazy food parties.
And - of course - I'm glad I get to work on TZEITEL! HUZZZZZAH!
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