Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Irrational Fears and Pressure

I often put pressure on myself to be perfect - I know I know - I obviously fall incredibly short of this goal.

However, when if comes to the theatre - I get REALLLLLY hard on myself - whether its directing or singing or dancing or acting - or juggling bunnies.  It's because I KNOW I have the POTENTIAL to be incredible - but I dont always use my facilities or have the training or work intelligently.  This causes pre-audition anxiety and I freak out and cant sleep.  I wish everything would just fall together for once - and I could get hired doing something I love - other than buffing floors.

I guess tomorrow is just a wild hail mary.  Speaking of Mary - she is out of town - and I feel incredibly underprepared for this audition (for Phantom) - sicne I spent all my time preparing for MERMAID which isnt happening.  BLAH!.

Blah blah blah blah blah.

Alright I"m gonna try to sleep - and hope I can sing the morning - and no be pitchy!  What is with this newfound pitchiness.  I never used to be pitchy until yesterday.  Maybe it will be cured in my sleep.

TTFN!:)

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