Leg kicks

So - West Side Story - apparently I look Hispanic enough - but I can't kick my leg up high enough. Excuse me? WHAT? If there is one thing I am sure about - it is that I can kick my leg up as high as any leg goes. Teachers literally say "if I were M, I would get my leg up here, but for the rest of us - here is o.k." Apparently the NYU students call me Ms. Legs for how high my legs go. Even the uber ballerinas were like WHAT!? You have great extension. Did they cut you by mistake? (they all had stories to tell me of being cut by mistake.)

I am actually really tempted to just say F-it to dance. If I can't get kept at a call where I was TOLD that I look right, and ALLLLLL I have to do is "Kick my face" - dance is completely pointless. A waste of time for anything but to keep in shape. Really people? REALLY? My leg goes up. I can hold it up for however long you want. I can kick it up, slowly extend is it, develope it up, grand battement it up, lift is from a degage - do it with a bar, without a bar, on releve, balance, and my technique for it is great - no hiked up hip or out of alignment posture. The teachers always walk around the room expected to call out the girls with high legs on their incorrect placement, but they get to me and they say "whoah, that is very good." And yet, AND YET! I get cut at an audition for it. RIDICULOUS. I'm still FUMING. Anything else - ANYTHING else, I could think of some excuse. The choreographer literally said "all we want to see if whether or not you can whack your head with your leg or not. If you can you'll stay. If not, you'll get cut." Whack I did. GAH!

So - I think what I really need to do is forget the dance and focus on acting and singing. Find vocal performance workshops, find acting classes, get in rinkidink plays that I can actually get seen for, and learn that way - because it obviously aint going to happen from dance, for whatever cosmic reason. It's strange - because I really am a great dancer. Ah well - I just have to get amazing at singing and acting instead.:) Hey - it's what all the stars do!:)

In other news - I actually CRIED ON CUE in my Fiddler scene today! AMAZING! That has never happened before. If I wasnt so busy being sad - I would have been ecstatic! After rehearsal - the daughters, motel, fyedka, and golde all went out for hamburgers (because I was having a ridiculous craving) and it was amazing! So nice to hang out with such sweet intelligent wonderful people!:)

Also, Starting Sunday - I'm Frabrizio's assistant choreographer for an off Bway show he is choreographing for. HOOORAH! I do love me some Fabrizio. One day, maybe I'll be able to be a light int he piazza like he is!:)

Also - less than a week until JP moves in! I'm so excited! If nothing else - VOCAL COACH IN THE APT! But I just think it will be wonderful to have someone who I want to be around in the apt - instead of smelly and/or psycho people. Nathan he is not - and sure - he has more than his fair share of oddities - but overall - I think it will be wonderful!:) And I think - I will be very vocally productive! I will have to learn opera arias that's for sure! And he promised to help me with the West Side Story music. I'm so excited!!!:)

That's all for now.