gummy worms

So today was kinda sucky because at work this guy informed me that the Barrington phone calls did in fact go out - which of course means - I did not get one - so - no Louise - no Carousel.  FYI everyone reading this - The Secret does NOT work.  I repeat - The Secret does NOT work.  I don't think anyone was envisioning that more than I was - so - I repeat - The Secret does NOT work.  (I of course have never actually read the secret - but I am told it says if I envision something and believe its true it will happen - well - I did that - it did not happen - which leads me to conclude The Secret does NOT work.) Boo.

But the truly upsetting part of all this is that I had to sit there while all these others musical theatre people who work at steps talked about all their exciting summer jobs and how they couldnt decided whether to work at Algonquit or Sacramento - and I can't even get freaking seen for anything but Phantom 2 which I sucked at.  GAH!  The saddest part is - I truly think I have more than enough talent to get cast if I could only be seen.  I mean - of course - you have to fit the puzzle.  If Barrington hired a 5'2 Julie  - they cant have her daughter being 5'5 - it just looks funny.  But if I was seen at more than five things - I'm sure something would have worked out.  When it comes to singing, dancing, and acting, I have a pretty darn good package.  (touch wood.)  SO GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH GAH!  It makes me want to bash walls in.  An old friend from Jupiter theatre however IMed me today, and said that SHE - who IS equity - and has not one but TWO agents - has a hard time getting seen as well right now - that was a little comfort.  One of the guys at work also pointed out - that while they are all out on their summer jobs - the Bway shows will be holding auditions and I WILL get seen - because they will all be away doing regional shows - and I can pop in.  Here's to hoping.  Mermaid will be auditioning in June!  I've been tapping!

Sadly - this day also involved a lot of binge eating - so that has GOT to stop for me to don the famous seashell bra...

I had a really disgusting dinner Jean-Paul.  He proposed this riddle to me:

1,2,6,42,1806, ---- what number follows in the sequence.  I solved it without a calculator in just a few minutes.  Apparently this is super impressive - see if you can do it!:)  Apparently it's super hard, but I figure if I could come up with the answer, it doesn't take a rocket scientist.  (Obviously - as I am not a rocket scientist.)

I always find its funny when people are surprised I have a brain - I have a very good brain - I just hide it very well ---  it's my secret weapon ---