Redemption

Today was redemption day.  I just couldn't live another minute knowing I had put forth such a poor performance at the Phantom 2 EPAs.  The cloud of doom was too much to bear - even with Francesco kissing my cheek and feeding me ice cream.  So - I did the unthinkable.  I went AGAIN!  I don't know of anyone else who has done this - gone to the same EPA twice - but there were no rules against it in equity - and as my friend Alena says - the one thing I'm good at its fixating on something and figuring out how to get it.  While I have no control over whether or not casting directors like me - I DO have control over how good I am and the product I put forth.  I put forth Spam!  I can't give someone SPAM!  So I went again.  I was SUPER warmed up - super dolled up in a sexy short black dress with leather trim - sparkly strappy black high heels - hair some up in a French twist and pearl necklace.  I sang I Believe My Heart from Woman in White - and sang it about as well as I ever have - so I left MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH HAPPIER!  The casting director LOOKED at me and smiled the whole time - so I think he actually enjoyed my performance - or - as Amanda said - he may have just been enjoying my dress - she said "whoah" when she saw it.  It is very un "me" - but it looks great!  Even better - I know one of the casting assistants!  Not one in the room - but my friend Ali from UM works in the office!  So hopefully she can slip my headshot in the "good" pile even it isnt already - but Ali is a fabulous person and it was GREAT seeing her.  Apparently I was her artistic inspiration in college and she said "I woudl be so sad if you don't direct again! DIRECT DIRECT."  We shall see.  I WANT to - but I don't want to ASSISTANT direct unless its for Phelim or Trevor.  And no one seems to want to fund my directing project or produce it - so - we'll see how that goes. Right now - I'm focusing on the performing - and I couldn't be happier about it.   

Back tracking - yesterday I went two auditions - wasn't seen at either because there were too many equity - (Legally Blonde and the Forrestburg season - hence making my being seen TWICE at Phantom 2 even weirder.)  I had a send off dinner with Kat and Cara - they are now in Bimini for two weeks.  Oddly - I"m not jealous at all.  I really love New York.  I feel no need to escape the city.  I LOVE the city.  I have wanted to leave but only to see my family or get away from Batman - who has blissfully been out of my life for the past two weeks.  I love my friends in the city - I've been blessed with fabulous ones and I hope I return the favour.  I love my dance classes.  I WILL love my voice lessons with SIERRA'S TEACHER!  And heck - I love my lessons with Jean-Paul.  Auditioning is actually kinda fun minus the waking up super early.  I get to dress up and be a different character - and hopefully I'm getting better at it - not letting my nerves get to me as much - and I've been working really hard in dance class so hopefully I'm getting better with the rhythm.  I love the variety of food and restaurants, I love the shows, I love the music, I just wish the MTA would improve!  BAH!  BAD MTA!  RAISING THEIR PRICES AND CUTTING THEIR SERVICE!  THe trains are SOOOOO RIDICULOUSLY CROWDED!  It's criminal I tell you.  BUt I-95 is a bitch during rush hour - so - is it really much different?

Today - after Phantom I went to Nancy's ballet class - then had lunch with Phil who just got back from Taiwan!!!!!  And he watched figure skating world's live - he was in the FRONT ROW!  So it was fun to hear about his adventures!  We then went to Barnes and Nobles and read eachother funny passages from books in the humour section - there is a book called "The practical guide to racism."  It's a parody of racism and stereotypes against blacks, asians, Indians, Gays, Jews, and MERPEOPLE!  I WHOLE CHAPTER ON MERPEOPLE!  That made me super happy!  And oddly every books I opened seemed to have an ALW reference - maybe it's a SIGN about Phantom 2!  LOL!  Or just a coincidence.  We may never know!  (OH I forgot to tell you - at the audition the girl in front of me kept bouncing up and down talking about how exciting it would be to meet ALW - could I imagine meeting him - me = awkward answers....she was sweet though - I bounce around like that for Mermaid - and was at my SECOND EPA for Phantom 2 so - you know - who am I to talk.)

Then I went Patti's class - where apparently I was off the music AGAIN (I swear - she counts differently than everyone else - the other teachers don't seem to think I'm so bad ---)  Anyways - then Amanda had me tape her contemporary dance audition video - and help her with the choreography, etc...  That was fun.    She is really good.  She does Jana's choreography on POINTE!  Egad!

Anyhoo - have to wake up early for - get ready - the PHANTOM 2 DANCE CALL!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!  Will this be the first dance call I am kept for?  Let's hope so!  I so want to be part of this show - which will either be a trainwreck or an amazing success!  It fascinates and captivates me to no end!  Oh - and WAIT - there is ANOTHER singing audition on MONDAY - the CHORUS call!  HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!  I'm debating going to that - heck - WHY not!?

Alright so - now I go to sleep!  Somewhat redeemed.  Who knows if they liked me - but at least I put forth a good product!:)