Things I've learned in the past few days

I think I made a few discoveries over the past few days about my auditions and how I should approach them.

The first discovery I've mentioned before - I need to put together a 16 bar cut "performance package."  Beautiful voices are a dime a dozen - but beautiful voices that can captivate you with a heartfelt sparkling performance aren't so common.  I think new voice teacher can help with that.  I think I can work on that in my living room.  Good times.

The second is - I figured out my problem in dance auditions.  When I'm in Jana's class - everyone tells me they can't stop watching me, my lines are so beautiful, I have such a beautiful movement quality, etc...  I thought - well - I guess Jana's style just suits me.  Well that is true, it does suit me, but more importantly - I do a few things in her class that I don't in others - but could.  First of all - I have A LOT OF FUN - I almost feel like I"m out on a playground.  I trust my technique and just do the choreography - I"m smiling and experimenting and having a blast.  Secondly, I really REACH for everything - I REACH my arms, my legs, take huge steps, etc... it just makes everything look prettier and more exciting.  So - I need to have fun and REACH.  It seems so simple -

Thirdly - I decided I'm not gonna go to every freaking audition out there - I'm going to plot my auditions and come 210% prepared - a well chosen well rehearsed song, researched the choreographer, rested up, etc...  Otherwise I'm just performing like an exhausted worn out depressed out of work actress.  Getting cut and typed out is rough on the ego - and losing self confidence isn't really good for attacking auditions.  So I'm gonna be wiser - and decide quality not quantity.  

Fourthly, I cannot sing when German is listening - I get nervous and suck and it carried over into the next day - so mums the word when he's around - no matter how much he begs.

Fifthly - I must regard all of his food as POISON disguised as yumminess.  I HATE having to do mental restraint exercises when I'm at home - but how was I supposed to know that this tiny little German eats like a pregnant woman who's boyfriend left her?  GAH!

I locked myself in my room when he came home today - an evening of alone-ness did WONDERS for my brain.  

Rovert is directing in NYC again this fall- one of his london productions is transferring to the Bway.  I'm hoping he could use an assistant again.  He was such a joy to work with, but he may just be using his assistant from London.  Oh well, I'm going to write to him and hope.   

Something has to work out - I'm a talented intelligent girl - and I like to believe I'm good to people - and hey - I still have two months until Mermaid auditions again!:)